About ME

Sentenced without trial.

How does anyone deal with the emotional stress and mental health issues of living with a Temporary Protection Order and not being allowed to see or talk to their children? The truth is that there is nothing that eases the pain. 

As a Christian minister, I've given my life to preaching love, the power of love and the power of forgiveness. It’s been a very difficult time reconciling the conflict between faith and the reality of hurt and harm caused by someone you loved while dealing with the sadness and heart-wrenching loss of your children. 

When I go down on my knees and pray, I ask the Lord to step into my troubled life and help me with wisdom and guidance. When I lift the behaviours of the New Zealand Family Court, the actions of the New Zealand Police and those of my ex and choose to forgive them for what they are doing to me and the children, I can feel the Lord’s presence in my life. While the pain may never leave, His presence lifts my spirit and calms my mind. 

Having a relationship with God does not remove the pain one feels when you lose someone you love or the love of your children. Having a relationship with God means you don’t need to go through that pain alone. It takes a lot of faith and trust, with faith being a spiritual commitment, knowing that God is steering your life and has closed doors He wants to be closed and will open doors He wants to be opened. With trust being personal, you trust God in his actions, and you trust yourself in his glory and his purpose. 

In The Lord’s Prayer, we say, “Thy will be done”. That is a statement to God saying that whatever you need from me, I'm here to serve that purpose. When you realise that everything that is happening in your life serves his purpose and not yours, then you can step back with peace. 

Please pray with me:

“Almighty Father, creator of heaven and earth, I know that you are aware of the challenges in my life, that you are aware of the hurt, pain and suffering that I'm enduring. Father, I lift my heart, mind and soul to you. Forgive me as I forgive and love me as I love. Although I may not understand your will or the purpose for these challenges in my life, I lift all that is before me and proclaim to you Father, that I am here to serve and that your will be done.

Father, from this moment I fear nothing, for it is written that you have redeemed me, you have called me by name and that I am yours. Father, as a walk-through life I know that I am no longer walking alone, that my purpose is your purpose, that my direction is your direction, and that you will bring the right people into my life. May those that meet me, meet you, those that see me, see you and those that hear me, hear you. 

In Jesus Christ’s name, I pray.

Amen

 

Isaiah 43:1-5